See this beautiful couple… they are people that I love and adore and miss a lot…
they are people that I wish i would have spent more time with,
and listened to there stories,
and learned from them.
Sadly I didn't do much of what I wished…. but
that is why I am glad I am sealed to them for
Time and All Eternity.
You see they are my grandparents…
Grandma Flora Benson Ransom
and
Grandpa Lorin G. Ransom
They got married in the Salt Lake Temple and had some kids…
Gene
LeeAnn
Clair
George
Gordon
and Gary
My dad is George… my wonderful marvelous father whom I look up to and have always admired. He has leaded, guided and supported me through out my life… I am so glad I will have time to do the stuff I haven't done with him yet… but one of my favorite things is
that every couple of years him and his siblings get together and have family reunions and they sit around the campfire and talk about the past… they will never realize how wonderful those memories are and have always been, so that i can get to know my grandparents a little bit better.
My Grandpa lived until I was 17, I got to spend a lot of time with him,
he was so sweet, would always kiss me, and hug me and always had time to talk to me…
I thought he would live forever.. but…
He went to go live with my grandma
Grandma passed when I was 4. I didn't know her. I remember very little but what I do know is her voice. One time my parents pulled out a very old cassette tape with her talking on it and knew that was her with out even being told… it's funny how that is something I had…
I remember when she passed away and how all the older girl cousins got a present from her, and they all still have them, but I didn't and so I would go into my sisters rooms and look at the stuff they got. They each got perfume bottles and my one sister got jewelry… I would go in there room when they were gone and smell the perfume but never put it on, because it was grandmas….
I got in trouble for doing this of course because well it was there stuff but I don't think they realized it at the time how much I was so jealous… and am still of how they knew her.
It's amazing but as you grow older you learn more and more…
what I know about grandma is that she worked hard, and had cancer.
When I was 21 I was at school at BYU Idaho and I got sick…
my parents decided I needed to come home and after a couple days we found out I had
hypothyroidism. They asked if anyone in our family had and, and after much thought and discussion with the family… we are pretty sure grandma had that as well. It wasn't known then but if she didn't have it I got the gene because she had breast cancer and they are related… how, I don't know it's just what the books and doctors say.
Grandma also had other things that I have… things that I care less to talk about seeing is how they are embarrassing but I am so proud to have her as my grandma and to know what I do know about her.
So your probably wondering what that has to do with this piano…
well it was in there home all my dad's life.
And I have loved it… since I learned that. My parents have had it for many years since my grandparents no longer had room for it in there home…
My mom promised me years ago that it would someday be mine…
I dreamed about that I dreamed of the day it would be in my home.
Well.. as Meg Ryan says in "you've Got Mail"
"… People say change is a good thing, but truthfully I am heart broken…"
I have been crying about this piano for the last week…
Someday I will stop crying but it wasn't just a piano to me it was, a part of my grandparents
it was there legacy… it was the thing I was finally old enough to have …
I took good care of it I cleaned it and dusted it.. and than it did as piano's do after 80-90 years stop sounding good. The piano tuner came to visit on Monday…
Actually i will go back. After we got home for Christmas I was sitting down to play with some new books I borrowed from my mom… one of my favorite things to do, ransack her books ask her if I can borrow them and than go home to my piano the one I like the sound best and play…
So as i sat down to play all the bottom hand notes.. were wrong… very clunky and messed up…
I tried and tried but it just sounded awful.
So I bugged Dave he said when we get the tax return we can get it tuned. So I called around got an estimate and waited. Finally Monday the guy came out. He started tuning away and after a bit he tells me that the pins are loose and that he can't do much… it's never gonna be fixable… it's too old.
Well I being not ready to give up tell him to continue and so he does.. than after a bit he tells me he can't take my money and I thank him and he leaves. I ask him what you do with pianos like this and he says… put them on craigslist for Free… you'd be surprised. i paid him half of the original estimate so $75, than he gave me a gift certificate to there store for $75 towards a piano.
I posted it on Craigslist after much research and guidance from my mom… did, and with in the week someone wanted it… they picked it up this morning, in hopes they can get it to sound better. The husband … I swear Bob Marley's twin, used to work for the same place that tuned my piano… good luck… I was sad but also happy that it was going to a good home with musical people.
[my cute little stool… hasn't worked well in ages but it had character and I loved it]
[my re-organized dinning area…. all the projects I want to do are going to be coming on full boar to get my mind off this sad time]
My plans now… to search for my own piano, my choice of piano, one that I can have in my home for some time… since they don't last for ever obviously. I am in the market for something $200 or under, I guess, since that's what I can afford, that has been loved that can continue to be loved in our family… I have my eye on a Kimball Consulate we shall see what I find… I am going for a Spinet this time around… smaller not as hard to move or heavy… but hey good news is I am not in a rush… these things take time…
I'm 34 and it's almost like a mid life crisis…. out with the old in with the new…
but I am still heartbroken…. nothing to me will ever sound as good.
(sorry if this post was sad or depressing but since I can post what I want I did and I feel better now)
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