Being a Mom is hard...
growing up whenever things were hard, I just remembered that saying that was said by who know's who...
"He never said it would be easy, he only said it would be worth it."
It's not easy, it's never been easy, all my life I felt I had gotten the short end of the stick.
1. Had bad ears when I was little and so could never go swimming, which to a little kid, it's the end of the world.
2. I have always talked loud (as a result of the hearing thing I think, I don't mean to talk loud... I am not being annoying on purpose...)
3. I had to have braces twice...
4. I have bad feet and so my dreams of becoming the next amazing gymnast in high school was not for see able...
5. I am horrible at taking test... and so I prefer essays and writing papers because in school I would pull A's and B's on those...
6. I failed science and math basically because they were about memorization since I have a hard time with my memory (they say it's linked to the not hearing thing)
7. I have gotten 2 associates degrees... (that's not a bad thing, but in that time I could have gotten a BA)
8. I have always been one of those people that people think they can't handle the truth... BULL CRAP!!!
9. I thought I was never going to get married
10. When I finally got married we were old and so we started our family and now we are living the life that people 5 years younger than us are living.
11. I loose my temper easily
Ok, so I didn't write this list for pitty... I guarantee all of you can write lists like that and if you are in denial... well good for you!
But... Being a mom is HARD!!!
Every day I wake up saying, I am not going to get after my 3 year old and I give her the benefit of the doubt, but than a number of these things happen and I loose my cool!
1. yelling while I am on the phone (usually making an apt, figuring out a bill, with a church member)
2. playing the piano only while her sister is trying to take a nap!
3. never wanting to eat anything besides sweets
4. drinking milk/juice all day long instead of eating
5. Refusing, REFUSING to go potty in the potty (and NO, everyone else's suggestions won't work, she is not everyone else's child, believe me I have tried!!!)
6. throws fits everywhere we go, no matter how rested she is...
7. Screams when the vacuum is on
8. beats up on her sister all the time (taking a toy away, pushing her over, kicking her... it's great)
9. Is obsessed with Dora, and I hate it
10. All she wants to do is watch TV... I am thinking about giving all her toys away! Or ya know... getting rid of her shows!
And did I mention when anyone of these things don't go her way, than eruption of tears and flopping and screaming/holding her breath!
there is probably plenty more, but since it's 9pm, I am too tired to think of those things...
There are plenty of reasons I love being a mom
1. The stories I read with my daughters and there reactions (Sami, likes to help me read the story, finish the sentences of books that are her favorites)
2. They both love when I play the piano (Sami, plays next to me and sings to the more popular songs)
3. Sami loves singing (church songs, popular pop songs of my fav collection) & usually plays piano or dances while she sings
4. Sami knows all her ABC's, colors, and animals and the noises they make
5. Sami remembers so much stuff, even if it has only come up once or twice...
6. Sami says so much stuff that is cute.
7. Our girls love to play and tease. They tease me, they tease there dad,
8. Love to be tickled and love to laugh.
9. Love to eat Oreo's and they share with each other.
10. Sami, and how she cheers for us, or laughs with us when we are laughing... those things make us forget her moments!
But at the end of the day when they are in bed, I miss them, but I am so exhausted and know that the next day will come sooner than I want it to come, and I wonder how I am going to get through another day of this! Of course I wouldn't be able to do any of this with out my husband, for support while he is at work, and his backing me up when at home.
I wouldn't give up my family for anything. I am grateful for the challenges I have been given, because they make me stronger.
Me and Dave had a long conversation tonight about how we weren't bad parents, because we do the discipline and we do the play with them and love on them... even though we feel we are doing more discipling than playing, but at the end of the day they know we love them, they kiss us goodnight and usually go to sleep at a good hour, what more could we ask for!
But... Being a mom is hard, and if you don't agree, than wait! It will get hard! No one is perfect and this isn't easy for anyone. My sister of 6 kids (her oldest 14 and youngest 1) still has a lot of bad days...
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Ok, sorry it's so hard to read, but I double space and it still is all bunched together... if anyone knows how to fix this problem, please let me know!
Sara, we must have been having similar days. Most of today I felt like throwing in the towel, but I don't know how to do that as a mom! I was telling Eric that I'm at my wits end with everything being a battle. Just go potty in the toilet, eat food, sleep...it just feels like I'm not asking for anything unreasonable here. So why is every stinkin' little thing approached with such resistance. Then there's my sweet baby girl who I feel like I don't get to spend enough time with. My final straw today with Tate was his climbing all over me and getting in my way of walking by grabbing my legs, etc.. So I lost it. Picked him up and while yelling, "Go to SLEEP!" plopped him on his bed and shut the door. I felt like such a dummy afterward. But it actually worked and we all slept a couple hours. We all felt better after that.
Then we went to Winco and he threw a tantrum by the door as we were leaving. Some nice young man came up to me in the parking lot and told me that he admired my patience. I'm still laughing about that. So nice, but I was feeling that I have zero patience, especially considering my behavior this morning! Anyway, just letting you know, and you already knew, that you're not alone!!
Thank you Shelley... I know I am not a lone but oddly enough it's really comforting to hear someone elses sob stoires... and know that I am not the only one that looses my temper and gets at my wits end!
You must know by now that I get that way too. Your post has inspired one of my own with it's own little twist.
You are a great mom. Just worrying about the times when we loose our cool, I think, proves that we are good moms and that we care about how our kids are growing.
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